i figured it out. i'm a super hero.

i figured out a minute distinction about how i work. it's amazing when you come to one of those "aha" moments. you ask yourself, "is this really it? yeah!!! i can't believe it!" then, suddenly you're hit with a multitude of flashbacks proving that same "AHA" theory.

for anyone that knows me, i've been categorized as the nice guy. I like to give --- a lot. and i used to believe that it was for the sake of giving (which i whole heartedly believe in). but, in my relentless acts of selflessness, i find that there tends to be some remorse. now, don't get me wrong; i am not remorseful about giving. it's one of my strongest values. moreso, it's the ACT of giving. i tend to be lazy at times. and to be honest, sometimes i just don't give a damn. i'd rather wallow in my own crap, smell it and just let it be --- crap (i'm working on that, lol)

so here's my distinction: i truly give and make something a priority if i feel i'll make a difference. if the extra thought, small action or shared experience will make a difference in the other person's life, i feel compelled to give --- to act. that's when i feel powerful.

it's like i'm a super hero. i am a super hero.